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Cake day: July 4th, 2023
  • His father died of FTD, and signs point towards him having it too. Epstein suspected it, and it’s becoming fairly obvious something is really wrong with him. He’s also suffered multiple strokes (visible facial droop), he has congestive heart failure (swollen ankles), and he might even have diabetes (needle marks on fingertips). He struggles stepping down stairs, and walking in a straight line. He also struggles with swallowing (slurping sounds), filtering whatever comes from his mouth, or what his body does (getting up to look at his ballroom in the middle of a meeting), he’s showing sundowning behaviour (falling asleep during the day, even in crowded, loud places, and tweeting crazy shit all night long) and has been incontinent for years at this point.

    I don’t know what he has exactly, but I hope his days are painful, his nights sleepless and that he hurts every single living second.

  • When I questioned whether or not I was autistic (at 31) with my therapist, it made me realise how contextualised and nuanced it was, how ingrained it was and what couldn’t be explained by autism was actually ADHD. It turns out I have both (as many do).

    Now everything just makes sense, but it took me almost 3 years of introspection, reflection and work to see it all (or most of it, I’m pretty sure there are things that I haven’t entirely noticed or understood yet).

  • My first and best move, I believe, was to make my bathroom a lot less stimulating. I added an indirect light, an adjustable pressure shower head, and a space heater.

    That helps an absolute ton.

    I also accepted that doing less but doing it still, is a lot better than not doing it at all. Someday I just shower, some other day I shave and shower, some other day I just wash my hair. Breaking it up and not seeing “hygiene” as a big single task massively helps too (and that’s applicable to many other things as well).