European guy, weird by default.

You dislike what I say, great. Makes the world a more interesting of a place. But try to disagree with me beyond a downvote. Argue your point. Let’s see if we can reach a consensus between our positions.

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Joined 3 years ago
Cake day: August 19th, 2023
  • I have an integrated payment system that works directly from my banking apps; without those apps, I’m out of the system, as it depends on push notifications to accept and allow transfers, payments, etc. Another ugly thing happening is the slow but steady shift of banks towards app-only remote access. My day to day bank is somewhat a middle of the ground but they’ve invested heavily into their app, while ignoring their website, that stopped somewhere around 2015. It’s clunky, hard to use and even lacks some options that are only available on the app or at a walk-in location but those are but a few in the entire country. There are already two banks operating in my country that are app only for access.

    Another example is my carrier. Their entire support is done through the app. No email, no phone, nothing. Unless I have their app, if I have an issue, I’m locked out. I can switch carrier and avoid this problem but that implies getting worst coverage.

    And I wasn’t originally considering it but my government does have an app that concentrates a number of direct services and allows for digital copies of official documents to be available.

I’ve been looking into moving towards a more privacy friendly OS on my phones; I’ve been deGoogling my phones to the maximum extension I can manage, deactivating stock apps and putting in as much FOSS possible.

But what other options are there out there?

I don’t want to go full out into Linux Phone territory, as I am not tech savvy enough to maintain a phone on that line, and I have two bank and a carrier applications I would like to keep using.

As I write this, Murena and their /e/ OS seems to be a good option, as they have some accessibly priced equipments and the OS itself seems to be a clean(er) Android.

I’m aware the premise makes no sense.

Over the years I’ve been in and out of therapy. In my teens I had a serious enough depression to necessitate medication to somehow level me, a few years after that I went back because I felt I wanted to unpack a few things from my early years, after that I went back to pick up on the work I left behind, after that I went back to try to find a way to cope with the eminent loss of someone very dear to me and very recently I went back because I felt the need to give it another try to unpack a lot of wrongs in my head.

Unfortunately, every single time, as I try to go back and pick on the process - and I feel the need to stress that I’ve been received by multiple professionals over the years - I’m always directed, more or less openly, not towards what I want to resolve but towards something completely unrelated. And no, I am not a professional in mental health but I think I am minimally qualified to know what I think/understand is bothering me and want to explore and try to find a solution/rationalisation for so I can drop that issue or at least drop it in value in my mind so I can move forward.

Instead, my concerns have constantly been ignored or overlooked and all type of approaches been tried to deviate me, as such:

  • hypnosis (went horribly wrong)
  • cognitive and behavioural shift (as in “You are acting/feeling/thinking wrong.”)
  • completely ignoring my concerns
  • openly antagonising me
  • a very veiled attempt to create in me a notion of “faith in a higher power” (I’m laic)

The last approach is to try to teach me how to meditate.

I have always been received by licensed professionals, two of them through my NHS; no spiritual counsellors nor anything in the like.

I’ve been able to make more breakthroughs by reading philosophy books than by sitting in a chair and talking back and forth with a therapist. But I always get the feeling that I really need some degree of counselling I am not getting.

Am I being paranoid, unlucky or just expecting something that isn’t at all aligned with reality?